Too Heavy….

On Friday of last week I had to take Bailey,
Yes this little man
to the vet because he’s been scratching and itching like he has flee’s which he doesn’t.. I started him on Prednisone last week but even that isn’t helping. So the doctor said Bailey has two problems. The first is he has allergies like a human can have allergies and the prednisone alone isn’t going to cut it. He has put him another type of steroid called “Temaril” I think thats what its called which is a lower dose than hes on now but also has some kind of allergy properties in it too. We will be starting that tomorrow (Saturday)..

Bailey’s second a biggest issue at almost 13 is he is obese. I have changed his food several times, cut back etc and the weight just doesn’t come off. He is a Lhasa Apso and this breed should be between 13 and 20 pounds. Bailey weighed in today at……..31 pounds!!
Tonight we started his new diet..This is what he’s eating now..

Hill’s and the University of Tennessee came out with this new metabolic diet for weight loss and it seems to be working well in obese dogs. Bailey went from 1 1/2 to 2 cups of food twice a day all the way down to 3/4’s of a cup twice a day and only ONE cookie a day which for him is like , tragic because cookies are his favorite thing in the world… We started his new diet tonight and I can report he is NOT happy and neither am I because I know it’s my fault for letting him eat as much as he wanted and having as many cookies as he wanted all the time. So the guilt is just palpable..

I pray it gets easier for him. Being sick myself and not having been able to swallow many solid foods in ten years I know what it’s like to crave your favorite foods and not be able to have them so the fact that he’s having to do this is pretty much ripping me up but I have no choice if I want him around for some more years and I DO!..

When Its Time To Say Good-Bye…..

I haven’t had a post up for a while because we’ve been having a rough two weeks around here with our dogs or as we call them our “kids”…Last Sunday night, only a few days after Jake here…
had his bladder problem, which he still needs surgery for…our little girl Lady 
awoke at 530 am Sunday morning with this horrific deep hacking cough. The kind that will make the back of the hair on your neck stand up if you hear it.. Of course it just HAD to be a Sunday so we had no choice but to wait until Monday morning. Yes, I could have run her into an emergency vet but you’re talking hundreds of dollars for that and on Sunday night I had 122.00 dollars in my checking account because we had paid most of Jakes Bill three days before.

On Monday we took Lady into our doctor, I honestly thought maybe her diabetes had gotten to her heart but wasn’t sure because her color was good, she was still eating, able to walk around, wasn’t panting so I was stumped. The doctor said she had something called Tracheitits where her trachea was inflammed, gave us a bunch of medications and some low dose steroids which we knew would for a time mess with her blood sugar but there was no choice.. 

The rest of the week was not much better for her. On and off the phone with the vet, upping her dosages because she wasn’t getting worse but she wasn’t getting better and the hubs , myself and Lady were up all night because her cough always got worse at night and didn’t let up no matter what we gave her. On Thursday afternoon we called the vet back because we had found these pills we had for her a while back she had taken that open up your airways. The doctor said to give her half which we did.. Within an hour she was no longer coughing but, her nervous system was being affected in a horrible way. Her entire body was trembling and jerking all over the place. I called the vet back he said it was a side affect from the medication, not to give her anymore and it would wear off. Later that night, her nervous system seemed worse, her cough was now back worse and she was no longer interested in food or water.. 
Friday morning she was just so sick and I talked to the hubs and we both agreed that it was time to let Lady go..Our hearts were breaking but we knew it was the end of the road for our sweet girl. She was 14 yrs old, had been blind and deaf for almost two years, her diabetes was out of control and now her lungs were shot from the diabetes. So I called the vet and told him what was going on. He agreed with us. He’s been with us every step of the way with Lady even at 3 am the few times I had to call his cell and wake him up..

Hubs took Lady into her appointment at 1030 that morning. I could not go. I can not handle these things. Some may criticize me for that but I cant handle it. I held Lady all morning, kissing her, hugging her, snipped some of her hair to keep, told her what a good girl she was and always had been, how much I loved her and always would, that I would think of her and miss her everyday but her pain and sickness was too much and it was time she rested.. 
By 10:40am July 16th, our sweet angel was gone from us. Hubs is completely devastated even though he knows it was the right thing for her. You see, Lady was our first baby and she was ‘his’ baby. She loved me to pieces but she ADORED her Daddy and he adored her..So while it’s very very hard on me and it’s been even harder on him… We had her cremated and we should have her ashes back in about a week. I will place hers with her pup Bruiser we lost in 2010, who is on our mantle as well.. 

Some people believe that animals don’t have souls and don’t go to heaven. Even my own religion (Catholic) teaches that but I don’t agree. God made animals and they can feel, they have emotions, they are so intelligent and they can love more, deeper and completely unconditionally. Do you know many humans who can even do that? I don’t… So I know that God gave souls to animals and because of that I know and believe with my whole heart that one day when it’s our time to leave this earth we will be with our sweet girl again..

Falling House Of Cards…

Yep, thats pretty much how things feel right now. If you’re bothered by non happy clappy posts then you probably won’t want to read this but , sometimes real life just slaps you upside the head…and it has for me.

So whats been going on….Have you ever felt just completely defeated by life? When no matter which direction  you turn something else is just slugging you right in the kisser? Thats how it’s been going here. 

Let me begin with the start of August and my so called ‘budget’ and ‘paying down debt’. Umm, yeah, hasn’t happened in a while. I’ve been making nothing but minimum payments on everything because my homeowners insurance kicked in, in July to the tune of $200 per month until January of 2014. You may think thats high but because we live in a modular home and even though I am fourteen miles away from the coast and not in a flood zone, ever since Hurricane Katrina, homeowners insurance rates here in the South anywhere remotely near the coast skyrocketed and aren’t coming down. Yes, its highway robbery but what choice does one have?

Since it’s been so hot here in the South our electric bills have been close to $300 per month as well. So, between the homeowners insurance and the electric bill you’re looking at $500.00 right there. Living on a fixed income, trying to pay down debt with these two extra amounts each month and trying to survive the month financially just doesn’t work. So I am very discouraged as far as my debt. Not only because I haven’t been able to pay it down but because I’ve had to add to it as well. 

Last Thursday my dog Jake..here he is.. 
Yes, he smiles, was unable to urinate. I prayed it was a simple urinary tract infection but alas, it was not to be. We rushed him into the vet, he had to be cathed in order to pee, Xrays were taken and it turned out that Jakes bladder is full of stones!.He stayed over night at the hospital with the cath in and the doctor was hoping he could push the stones back up and medication would dissolve them.. Once again, I prayed and once again it wasn’t to be. We went back on Friday and the doctor said that while Jake is now able to urinate he will need a major bladder surgery to remove all the stones and they will actually have to make him a “female” meaning they have to make a (if you’re squeamish stop reading)
 hole that he will urinate from before it hits his penis so that if he gets stones again they will be able to pass. Surgery is this coming Monday and to the tune of $1700.00. Yes, I almost threw up all over my vet. Thanks to God, our vet will let us pay it off at $250 per month so now we will REALLY be even more strapped for money each month. And before anyone has any ideas of commenting and telling me to put my dog down? Forget it!. Jake is only 7 years old ,he’s in good health and I”m not going to kill my dog because he has bladder stones. Anyhow, this just adds more financial grief. 

After getting all over my husbands case for the last 3 months about his laziness I find out the truth, finally. Now mind you, I have asked him a dozen times if he was sick, didn’t feel well and each time the answer was “no Im fine” which ofcourse then just pissed me off more because what else is left when one just sits on their ass most of the day watching you kill yourself trying to keep up with everything ? Laziness. Well, the hubs finally told me he hasn’t felt well in months, he thought it would pass and may have been from his surgery in November. Then we kind of had a riff about him taking so long to tell me and letting me walk around with a pit of aggravation in my gut each day when I didn’t have to. We will be addressing this with our doctor very shortly.
Then there is my little girl Lady who sadly, I don’t believe is long for this world. She is 14 yrs old, diabetic, deaf and blind and while she had been doing well she is slipping now and quickly. She’s had this cough as well that we can’t find the source of and her eating habits have changed in the last week also. She’s eating less, sleeping and coughing more. It’s bad enough we have to face losing her but I will also have to come up with an extra $300.00 when she does pass for her vet bill and cremation bill… Are you seeing the theme here?
I have my family coming here in one week, this coming Saturday that I have not seen in 6 years. You can’t even imagine how much I am looking forward to this. They are like the air I breath and I need to be with them for a while. Well, my body has decided to screw me over. I am getting migraines again that started the other day that nothing works on and honestly, I do not feel well at all. Perfect timing huh? My house is in a shambles because I’ve been working on it and now I don’t have the stamina nor the desire to put it back together before they get here and I don’t have the money to pay anyone to come clean.
Lastly, If you know anything about me at all, then you know how much the Lord means to me. Well, even thats been suffering as well. Because I haven’t felt well and the night time I seem to feel worse my prayer life has become almost non existent and I am trying very hard to get it on track again.. 

So, my house of cards is crumbling and I am getting whipped at the stake from every direction. Ever have a life like this? 

A Bit Busy…..

Its going to be a bit busy over the next week…I somehow have to cajole myself an appointment with an allergist as soon as possible which in my terms that means like yesterday, I have the dreaded monthly food shopping to do, which means Walmart, then Costco and possibly Food Lion and then…… 
There’s these guys.. 
Three of them need grooming appointments this week. Im sure you can guess which three look like hot messes here and need baths. Shadow down here on the bottom (the all black one) needs a chest X-ray to rule out pneumonia and his eyes need to be checked as I believe he may have an infection in one of them and I also believe his cataracts may have gotten worse and his sight may have diminished even more. ( I hate diabetes)..
I am going to “try” and see if I can get them all in on the same day which let me tell you, is no easy task. The four of them in one car at the same time is like having four children on a long car ride who do nothing but pick at each other but if Mr Lou can help me it will save me on making 8 different trips and will save on gas as well. So, if my blog drops off again this week, please come back because I will be back! 

Weekend Review…Long Post….

Wow, I’m sorry it’s been a few days since I’ve posted but it’s not been exactly quiet around here nor boring.. Oh how I love boring sometimes.. My last post was on Friday and here’s the main reason why..

Cute isn’t he? OK, I think he’s cute but thats because I”m a biased mom..
This is my bailey. He’s a 12 yr old Lhasa Apso and in October of 2012 he somehow (we still don’t know how) contracted Meningitis (we also don’t know what type).. Bailey and I went through hell fire for about two months, he having the worst of it and by December he was better.. He was not 100% but our doctor who I trust explicitly said he may never be. He was left with some body ticks of the head and body here and there and his legs became weak and shake at times but other than that he was A LOT better.. 
This past Friday I was in the kitchen and suddenly I noticed Bailey was laying on the floor next to me (which isn’t unusual) but when I called his name he wouldn’t life his head.. That IS unusual.. So I bent down near him and lifted his head and it felt like a ton of led.. I knew something was terribly off.. Then he stood up and he was once again hunched over in the back (this indicates pain) and he had that “Meningitis look” in his eyes (they kind of look like they’re going to pop out of his head).. I quickly called my vet who told me what meds to start him on right away and I have to call him back on Monday morning with an update.. Bailey ‘seems’ to be getting better but with this disease I’ve learned not to speak too quickly. It can be a touch and go, up and down kind of thing so please if you would, say some prayers for my little one.. he’s the child I could never have.. 
That there has taken most of my time.. 
On Saturday, Deena came to clean and then I went to Confession at 3:30 and then Mass at 4:30..Words simply can not explain how wonderful both of these things are for me.. The weather was also beautiful Saturday.. 82 and sunny. All in all, it was a beautiful day! 
As we all know Sunday was St. Patricks Day and while I don’t have a drop of Irish blood in me I still celebrate to honor St. Patrick. I got up nice and early and got the corn beef, potatoes and carrots into the crock pot, smothered them with seasoning and a 12oz bottle of Guinness Stout. I added the cabbage later on and Mr Lou made his famous N.Y. Style Cheese Cake.. 
In the late morning I got this bright idea that I was going to take my car to the self serve car wash and clean it.. Allergy season kicked into gear last week here in South Carolina and everything, and I mean everything is covered in yellow green pollen.. 
My allergies are also making me absolutely miserable. I think I am going to break down and finally see an allergist this year. I’ve tried over the counter stuff but nothing seems to help and this year seems to be early and worse than any other year and let me tell you, my body agrees! 
Anyhow, I digress, back to the car wash thingy.. 
I guess no one ever made a self serve car wash for small 98 lb women who are not of good health..Wish I’d known that before I dropped my money into the slot..
The tools are super heavy and the amount of force that comes out of the hose? Well, it took almost all the strength I had to keep myself from being knocked over.. When I realized and felt how much it was draining me physically I should have said to heck with it and stopped but I had seven dollars in that machine and I wasn’t going to waste it. I would have been better off if I had. By the time I was done, the car was clean maybe 99% but I was physically 99% done. It was all I could do to get myself home.. So self serve car wash? No that will NOT be happening again.. 
Later in the day…..after I recovered from the car wash disaster…
We had our most dearest friends, Bill and Linda over for dinner and we had a great time together.. then again we usually do.. Good food, and tons and tons of laughs.. I’ll just post the photos and they can tell the story.. 
This is Linda.. One of the hippest chicks I know.. Isn’t she cute as a button?
This is Bill and while he wasn’t ready for this shot, it’s still a great photo of him.. A wonderful guy with a heart as big as the outdoors.. 
And this is…..
Dinner!!… Corn beef, Cabbage, Carrots, Celery all cooked in spices with Guinness Stout in the slow cooker all day.. Sorry no fancy table scape here.. We southerners (yes I call myself that now even though I”m from the North. After almost eleven years here I figure, if ya can’t beat em ya might as well join em!) we do things simply but with tons of heart.. 
And then…. 
Desert!!.. Mr Lou’s famous N.Y. Style Cheesecake which was heavenly…
And then we played with the camera a little bit.. 
This is Mr Lou and my heart… 
Linda, Myself and Bill.. Silly Bill but always fun to be around 🙂 
Me and my Sweetheart…

Thank you Bill and Linda for coming to dinner and being such amazing, amazing, loving and kind friends..We love you dearly…

How was your weekend?