Corona Diaries 4-4-2020

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Today is Saturday April 4th 2020 and for the most part it’s been a quiet day.

I left the house this morning at seven – thirty am to head over to our local Walgreens to pick up one of the prescriptions my husbands doctor had called him in on Friday that the pharmacy was able to fill.  When I returned home I did my usual cleaning up of the kitchen and straightening of the house. That didn’t take too long and so I was finally able to get to my house plants that have been seriously needing my attention for a few weeks now.

I watered them all and gave my spider plant that is over twenty five years old a good bath and hair cut as I call it. I snip off all the dead ends and spruce him up a bit. Yes I call the plant a him and sometimes I even talk to him. I remember scientists said it’s good to talk to your plants because they can hear you and respond. Now I don’t know if that’s true but I figure it can’t hurt. This plant has been with me since approximately 1992. My mom, God rest her soul made it for me when I moved into my apartment after being married and it has traveled with me through three different houses and one state move. He’s resilient I will say that.

Tonight I had to put Alvin, that’s my twenty two pound chi-mix into the sink and give him a bath. Every year when it begins to get warm here he goes through an itching phase. Neither myself nor his vets can figure it out. Tonight I gave him a benedryl and a warm bath with a medicated shampoo made for itching. For now it seems to have helped him some so he can rest. I may have no choice but to take him to the vet this week and have him get a steroid shot.

Speaking of leaving the house. My state does not have a stay in place order in effect as of now. I don’t know how I feel about those orders either but I will say, as I am sitting here tonight I can physically see why some states are enforcing them. As I look out my window I can see the neighbors across the street are having yet another soccer game on their property. This goes on every weekend in the warm months. They had a weekend long party last weekend. These people simply do not believe that staying away from others to stop the spread of Coronavirus applies to them and they aren’t the only ones.

Our public beach access was closed last week for the same reason. People, spring breakers, getting together in droves on the beach. Yesterday I had to go to the store to pick up the items the doctor recommended my husband have. That grocery store was packed with people. All those people needed to go out for “essential items“? I drove past Lowes and the parking lot was packed with people, Walmart was packed with people, Dollar stores, Target etc.  People are not listening.

Part of the problem in my state of South Carolina is that we are not testing nearly enough so for now in my county and state the positive cases and death rate is low. People I guess are taking a false sense of security in that. If and when we do begin testing on a massive scale I am afraid both cases and deaths are going to explode here. It doesn’t help that we have a governor who seems to be living in his own little bubble. He seems to think we are a “unique kind of people here in South Carolina“(his words not mine)  I have no idea what in the hell he’s even talking about and neither does mostly anyone else.

What on earth would make us so unique? Nothing. I’ve been sick many years and I know first hand, illness of any kind does not discriminate.. It doesn’t care about your race, gender, financial status, nothing. So what this man is talking about, I haven’t a clue.

I know for us I am trying my best to be at home as much as possible. I do have to go out because I have a husband who needs things because of his health, me as well and I have five dogs who also need things for their health. I believe these are essential reasons for leaving the house. Anything else? Not so much.

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Corona Diaries 4-3-2020

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Well, again…. it’s been a day.. As per usual nothing went as expected. I really need to listen to that old saying because it’s so true… Men plan and God laughs.

My morning began with me knowing I had to go out to the bank, to Walgreen’s to pick up prescriptions for my husband and to the drive up at the vet to get their medication. All essential outings. I sat down with my coffee at the dining room table and also mapped out how many pairs of gloves I’d need, masks, and wipes. How to handle the bags, how to wash everything when I got inside etc.

After running those three errands, I came home and did all the ‘things’ to disinfect. I was kind of tired so was getting ready to sit down for a while when my husband said, ” I don’t feel well”. You can imagine my thoughts because of all that is going on. He said his lungs hurt and were burning when he breathes in, he has the chills and he feels run down.

First thing I did was call our local health department line to see what my next move was. I was told to call my doctor which I did. At twelve- thirty his doctor called us on Face-time. He says he does not think it’s Coronavirus but he can’t be one hundred percent sure as of yet. He says my husband is not showing hardcore symptoms yet and because of that he wouldn’t be tested yet. So, he called him in an antibiotic along with telling him if at any point he runs a fever or breathing is worse we are to go to straight to the ER. So far, he has no fever, says his breathing hasn’t gotten worse and his pulse OX (yes we have a finger O2 meter here at home) has been normal. For this weekend it will be keeping an eye on him. Please keep us in your prayers.

My husband is also having trouble with his intestines as well. Two years ago he was in the hospital for four days with a tube up his nose and down into his stomach. He had an intestinal blockage and we don’t want or need that to happen again. So along with the antibiotic the doctor also said soft foods like soups, eggs, pudding. He said my husband looked somewhat dehydrated and to get some gatorade and drink water. Well of course I don’t normally have some of these things on hand so that meant going back out to the store. (think petri dish).

Before I went to the store a few hours later, I called Walgreen’s to see if his antibiotic was ready. Turns out, the way the doctor wrote the script and the amount don’t match up and they can’t fill it until they speak to him. Guess what? It was 4pm on a Friday. Doctors office was closed and their emergency number is not working. It’s a good thing we have a whole course of antibiotics here he can start in the meantime. If your’e wondering why I did not make a pick up order for the grocery store, I did. They are so low on stock by the time they got done texting me what they didn’t have I had no other choice but to go there physically and see what I could get.

On a brighter note, my great nieces birthday is today. She turned six years old. I got to Face-time with her and her daddy who is my baby (my nephew). That was the bright spot in my day. As for myself, I’m just tired. I am surrendering all of this and us to the good Lord and praying for an increase in my faith and trust, perseverance and courage to do His Holy Will and not that of my own.

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Corona Diaries 3-31-2020

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After the post I put up last night I knew I needed to sit down and get my brains straightened out. So, I did…

 

I actually took out my journal and began to make a sort of list. I needed to put things into perspective for my own mental health and I wanted to share it with you in the hope it may help you also.  T will stand for “Thought” and CT will stand for Counter Thought. This is a trick I learned to help me recover from severe anxiety disorder years ago and it does work.  Here is what I wrote last night :

T – This may very well kill those I love.

CT – Those I love including myself could die at any time for any number of reasons. You’ve learned that hard lesson too many times since childhood. Stop forgetting it but don’t obsess over it either.

T – This plague is killing thousands of people every day, we are surrounded by death.

CT – Influenza kills thousands of people every year. Every day we are surrounded by death we just don’t hear a lot about it.

T – This plague is so much more contagious than Influenza.

CT – Is it really? As of right now it seems to spread in the exact same way.

T – What have I touched? Have you disinfected enough? Did you do it correctly? Are you washing your hands enough?

CT – I remember as much as possible what and who I’ve come in contact with.  I have done my best to disinfect everything I can the way I know how. I wash my hands as I’ve been taught.

Conclusion : I am doing the best I can and asking God for His help. I am trying the best I can to do what I know and to leave all those I love and myself in Gods hands. No one can ask anymore than that from me not even myself.

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A How To For The Soul

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How to Live a Holy Life.

In 2 – Timothy he tells us that God has called us to lead a holy life. ALL OF US. Not just a select few but every single person. The question is, how do we do that? I know for myself when I read this scripture passage I was wondering as well. So I do what I normally do.

I prayed and asked God to show me and then I went back to the Saints of Old and took from their advice and the way they lived their lives. Here are some things we can put into practice in striving for the holy lives that God has called us too.

-Follow Gods commandments. All of them. Even the ones you think are not right. You’re wrong. God is right.

-Be obedient to His will and not your own no matter what.

– Be filled with the love of the Lord towards others but also rebuke your brother or sister with love, patience and kindness if they are straying from the narrow path. Who are your brothers and sisters? Everyone.

-Have a repentant heart. As God for this gift.

-Make a real effort every day not to sin and when you do ask God for forgiveness right away.

-Care for those who are poor and sick.

-Visit those who have been forgotten about or are imprisoned.

Everyone knows someone who fits the description of the above, maybe it’s someone in your own family. Caring for doesn’t always mean money either. Help them in some way, be kind to them, include them, visit them. Could be something as simple as a cup of tea, reading a book to them or even simpler, just sitting in silence with someone who has no one.

-Pray for the good of others especially those we do not like or have hurt us.

-Forgive. Yes I know this is hard. I struggle with this as well. But remember, when we pray the Lords prayer we are asking God to forgive us as we forgive others. Think about how you may have forgiven someone. Would you really want God to forgive you in the same way? Frightening thought isn’t it? Ask God for the grace to forgive as He forgives.

-Keep your eyes on the Lord and not the things or people of this world who tell you different.

-Take up your cross or crosses and carry them every day.

I realize you might think there is no way you could do any of this. I know they are all hard but most important, GOD knows they are hard but He, among everything else is also the God for whom nothing is impossible. You need to pray and ask for the grace to be able to accomplish these things. These are the will of God. Ask and you shall receive.

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It Matters

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I know many of you will read this post and not believe a single word of it but it must be told.

 

There is so much suffering in the world today. I don’t know if it’s any worse than other past ages but this is the age we live in. So many of us suffer with physical illness, emotional pain, drug addiction, alcoholism, persecution, poverty and maybe a combination of so many kinds of suffering. We live, in a suffering world and the world tells us to end our suffering. It’s now legal to commit suicide if a person is suffering any kind of mental or physical illness. Legal to slaughter an unborn child in the womb, to slaughter a full term, birthed infant to avoid suffering of having to alter life plans. In the eyes of the world there is no reason to suffer. There is no merit in suffering but, as always, the world couldn’t be more wrong. All suffering has merit in the eyes of God.

In the past two days I listened to two very well known, faithful, holy priests who are undergoing their own “agony in the garden of suffering’. Both young men in their early forties, faithful sons of the Lord Jesus Christ and His Church. One has been diagnosed with ALS also known as Lou Gherigs Disease, and the other, a brain tumor.

Both of these men asked for this. Yes, you read that correct. One asked God to give him something that he could offer for victims of clergy sex abuse. The other asked for something to make him a saint and a witness to all. God answered them. You may be thinking that God is cruel to let these two terrible illnesses befall these men but it’s just the opposite. These two men know the value of suffering in Gods eyes. They know how many souls can be saved through their suffering and witness to the love and mercy of God. God knows that more than ever in these troubled times in the world and in the Church we need suffering saints on earth and these two men have offered themselves to the Lord in obedience and service to Him. They have offered themselves as a sacrifice for the sins of the world.

God uses suffering for the good of the soul who suffers and or for other souls who otherwise many suffer a worse fate had no one offered themselves for them. This is part of the love and mercy of our Savior. Nothing is ever wasted with God. If you are suffering, offer your suffering to the Lord, for yourself, for others and God will use your suffering for good. He always does. Trust Him. We only see the here and now, God see’s the past, present and future. When the world tells you that suffering is a waste, to end your suffering, suffering has no use, remember that suffering always has merit in Gods eyes and you will be rewarded generously for your offering, your obedience and your trust in Him.

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