Corona Diaries 4-4-2020

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Today is Saturday April 4th 2020 and for the most part it’s been a quiet day.

I left the house this morning at seven – thirty am to head over to our local Walgreens to pick up one of the prescriptions my husbands doctor had called him in on Friday that the pharmacy was able to fill.  When I returned home I did my usual cleaning up of the kitchen and straightening of the house. That didn’t take too long and so I was finally able to get to my house plants that have been seriously needing my attention for a few weeks now.

I watered them all and gave my spider plant that is over twenty five years old a good bath and hair cut as I call it. I snip off all the dead ends and spruce him up a bit. Yes I call the plant a him and sometimes I even talk to him. I remember scientists said it’s good to talk to your plants because they can hear you and respond. Now I don’t know if that’s true but I figure it can’t hurt. This plant has been with me since approximately 1992. My mom, God rest her soul made it for me when I moved into my apartment after being married and it has traveled with me through three different houses and one state move. He’s resilient I will say that.

Tonight I had to put Alvin, that’s my twenty two pound chi-mix into the sink and give him a bath. Every year when it begins to get warm here he goes through an itching phase. Neither myself nor his vets can figure it out. Tonight I gave him a benedryl and a warm bath with a medicated shampoo made for itching. For now it seems to have helped him some so he can rest. I may have no choice but to take him to the vet this week and have him get a steroid shot.

Speaking of leaving the house. My state does not have a stay in place order in effect as of now. I don’t know how I feel about those orders either but I will say, as I am sitting here tonight I can physically see why some states are enforcing them. As I look out my window I can see the neighbors across the street are having yet another soccer game on their property. This goes on every weekend in the warm months. They had a weekend long party last weekend. These people simply do not believe that staying away from others to stop the spread of Coronavirus applies to them and they aren’t the only ones.

Our public beach access was closed last week for the same reason. People, spring breakers, getting together in droves on the beach. Yesterday I had to go to the store to pick up the items the doctor recommended my husband have. That grocery store was packed with people. All those people needed to go out for “essential items“? I drove past Lowes and the parking lot was packed with people, Walmart was packed with people, Dollar stores, Target etc.  People are not listening.

Part of the problem in my state of South Carolina is that we are not testing nearly enough so for now in my county and state the positive cases and death rate is low. People I guess are taking a false sense of security in that. If and when we do begin testing on a massive scale I am afraid both cases and deaths are going to explode here. It doesn’t help that we have a governor who seems to be living in his own little bubble. He seems to think we are a “unique kind of people here in South Carolina“(his words not mine)  I have no idea what in the hell he’s even talking about and neither does mostly anyone else.

What on earth would make us so unique? Nothing. I’ve been sick many years and I know first hand, illness of any kind does not discriminate.. It doesn’t care about your race, gender, financial status, nothing. So what this man is talking about, I haven’t a clue.

I know for us I am trying my best to be at home as much as possible. I do have to go out because I have a husband who needs things because of his health, me as well and I have five dogs who also need things for their health. I believe these are essential reasons for leaving the house. Anything else? Not so much.

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Corona Diaries 3-23-2020

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I have to admit, last night my anxiety meter went a bit high with this virus. There is SO much information just everywhere you look. You seriously can’t get away from it unless you choose too.

That’s what I did for the better part of this day. Today is Monday and in my house Monday’s mean my friend comes to help me with the cleaning. She and I sat down at the table this morning and had a good talk about what the near future might hold with her coming over. It’s a tough situation because for one, I need her help. She does the heavy cleaning that my body just won’t do which is basically all of it. For another reason, and one which means a ton to her, she is self employed. She doesn’t have employees or anything like that, she works for herself cleaning people’s homes. If she doesn’t work she has no income and if she has no income she doesn’t eat.

She also has the responsibility of her elderly mother who is not in good health. So there’s a lot to think about. But then, there is the elephant in the room. Yes, the virus. So like all people we sat and scratched our heads just wondering what we should do about this.

My husband and I spoke about it the other day and so I relayed to her what we spoke about. If at any time I feel, or my husband feels, or she feels uncomfortable coming over, or one of should not feel well for whatever reason then she won’t come until things clear up. At the same time though we will still pay her like we do every week.

Now before you get it in your mind that we have a ton of money let me just dispel that thought right now. We do NOT have a ton of money. We live on a fixed income and because she is a kind, caring soul, she does not charge us very much for what she does. Also, because her help to us is so important to us, we put her on the monthly budget every month. Paying her is as important to us as paying our mortgage or car payment. We need our house, we need our car and we need her.

Everyone’s priorities of what they need are different. These are just some of ours. SO how are we able to still pay her living on a fixed income? Firstly, the money we pay her is always put aside the first of every month. If she were still coming to clean we would be paying her anyway. Secondly and most important, this is a bad time for people in the whole world. We have no idea what will happen from hour to hour, day to day. Will we get sick? Will someone we love get sick? Will we, they survive? Will we not get sick? No one knows the answers to these questions. As I said above, if she does not get paid she does not eat and she has others to worry about so it’s not just herself. We HAVE to help each other and since I would be paying her anyway if this was not happening in the world, I would continue to pay her so she has some kind of money coming in. It may not be much but it’s something.

We still don’t know if this will happen but if it does I wanted her to know she doesn’t have to worry about pay, at least not from us. It’s early here while I’m writing this tonight. A little after seven pm but I am not feeling well. No, I don’t believe I have the virus, I have many nights and days where I don’t feel well because of my own poor health and how I physically feel changes from day to day as well as severity. So I am actually resting in bed with a book that I am desperately trying to read about simple living. Hoping it will get my mind off things and help me to relax because it feels pretty bad when you physically feel unwell and anxious at the same time.

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The Decision Is Made

My Decision

As most of my readers will remember, back in April of this year I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis.  Some of you may also know I have been ill for the past 25 years but this is a new diagnoses to go along with many others. My options for treating this new diagnoses are the standard. Methotrexate injections, steroids, and other drugs. 

While I am well aware these drugs are life savers for a lot of people, at this moment in my life I am not willing to subject myself to them. I know some will think I am insane for even thinking this but the truth is, these medicines whilst I understand do help many also cause serious side affects in ones body.

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I have not seen my rheumatologist since April but am due to see him this coming week. Well, after a lot of prayer and soul searching and, after going over my test results I have come to this decision. Whilst I am in pain and I do have swelling in area’s of my body I also realize there are natural ways I may be able to help myself. Possibly through herbs, foods and changing some of my habits. Namely, kicking this sugar binge I have been on for months now. I can tell you this is a major problem for me and it is….making me sick. 

I feel the sickness a few moments after I eat a sugar filled cookie which by the way, I have been binging on for months. I feel the sickness in my body with each potato chip which I have also been binging on for many months. Why have I been eating these foods like they are going out of style? Because I can not swallow 98% of solid foods and I am skinny so, when I find something I can get down I latch on like a german shepherd in heat and don’t let go. The official diagnosis for this is called Dysphagia. 

I have decided that with trusting in God completely and spending a lot more time with Him in prayer, attending Mass again, receiving the Blessed Sacraments and spending time in Adoration,  it is time for me to take the chance and try and introduce good foods into my body even if they have to be pureed. I have to see if I can swallow them (pray I don’t choke) and I have to see if I will be able to digest them. For many years I have seen stomach doctors and always no answers and no real options besides more drugs that may or may not help. I believe, after talking with God, A LOT, it is time I started trying to heal myself with His help. 

In the coming months and weeks I will be scarce on social media with the exception of my blog as I try and learn ways to help and heal myself and I pray and hope to share all this with you here on my blog. I hope you will join me and I ask you to please pray for me. 

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Too Sick For A Doctor – TMI

Yes, I know, sounds crazy right? Well I’m here to tell you it isn’t crazy at least, I don’t think it is? And it does happen and it’s happened to me today…

 

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I have or should I say had, my first follow up appointment with the Rhuematologist to discuss possible treatment options. I say possible because it’s a possibility I won’t be doing it but that’s for another post. I was supposed to be there tomorrow, Wednesday morning. Well, my body has decided it has other plans for me. The plan is, to be stuck in bed all day yesterday, today and most likely tomorrow. Guys? Hide your eyes.

Why am I and have been stuck in bed?  Some refer to it as ‘your monthly friend’ umm, yeah, I don’t see anything friendly about it!!! Of course if you’re actively having sex, not married etc then yeah, I could see why you would call it your friend but, I’m 47 years old and married and No, it’s not my friend!!! Anywho…Since becoming chronically ill so many moons ago I experience a lot of sickness with my cycles. Sometimes it’s not too bad and other times it’s like being hit by a semi for about three days. This month it was a double semi and here I am. 

People who are chronically ill have to cancel things all the time because we never know from one hour to the next how we will feel. Yes, our bodies can change on a dime like that and yes there are times we are actually too sick to see a doctor. I know just how absolutely insane that sounds but look at it this way. If you had the flu, you know how sick you get with the flu right? Usually there’s not much a doctor can do for a healthy person who gets the flu so going to a doctor is pretty useless. Instead you stay home and ride it out until you feel better. Now imagine if you had the flu and you had to go and sit in a waiting room with other sick people hacking and sneezing all over the room, then you had to wait again to see the doctor, then it’s off to the pharmacy to wait again to pick up your prescription. By now you’d most likely be praying you won’t black out and break your neck because you’re so weak. See what I’m sayin here? So yes, being too sick to see a doctor is a real thing and yes it does suck. 

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Here’s to better days. 

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