Corona Diaries 3-23-2020

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I have to admit, last night my anxiety meter went a bit high with this virus. There is SO much information just everywhere you look. You seriously can’t get away from it unless you choose too.

That’s what I did for the better part of this day. Today is Monday and in my house Monday’s mean my friend comes to help me with the cleaning. She and I sat down at the table this morning and had a good talk about what the near future might hold with her coming over. It’s a tough situation because for one, I need her help. She does the heavy cleaning that my body just won’t do which is basically all of it. For another reason, and one which means a ton to her, she is self employed. She doesn’t have employees or anything like that, she works for herself cleaning people’s homes. If she doesn’t work she has no income and if she has no income she doesn’t eat.

She also has the responsibility of her elderly mother who is not in good health. So there’s a lot to think about. But then, there is the elephant in the room. Yes, the virus. So like all people we sat and scratched our heads just wondering what we should do about this.

My husband and I spoke about it the other day and so I relayed to her what we spoke about. If at any time I feel, or my husband feels, or she feels uncomfortable coming over, or one of should not feel well for whatever reason then she won’t come until things clear up. At the same time though we will still pay her like we do every week.

Now before you get it in your mind that we have a ton of money let me just dispel that thought right now. We do NOT have a ton of money. We live on a fixed income and because she is a kind, caring soul, she does not charge us very much for what she does. Also, because her help to us is so important to us, we put her on the monthly budget every month. Paying her is as important to us as paying our mortgage or car payment. We need our house, we need our car and we need her.

Everyone’s priorities of what they need are different. These are just some of ours. SO how are we able to still pay her living on a fixed income? Firstly, the money we pay her is always put aside the first of every month. If she were still coming to clean we would be paying her anyway. Secondly and most important, this is a bad time for people in the whole world. We have no idea what will happen from hour to hour, day to day. Will we get sick? Will someone we love get sick? Will we, they survive? Will we not get sick? No one knows the answers to these questions. As I said above, if she does not get paid she does not eat and she has others to worry about so it’s not just herself. We HAVE to help each other and since I would be paying her anyway if this was not happening in the world, I would continue to pay her so she has some kind of money coming in. It may not be much but it’s something.

We still don’t know if this will happen but if it does I wanted her to know she doesn’t have to worry about pay, at least not from us. It’s early here while I’m writing this tonight. A little after seven pm but I am not feeling well. No, I don’t believe I have the virus, I have many nights and days where I don’t feel well because of my own poor health and how I physically feel changes from day to day as well as severity. So I am actually resting in bed with a book that I am desperately trying to read about simple living. Hoping it will get my mind off things and help me to relax because it feels pretty bad when you physically feel unwell and anxious at the same time.

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2 thoughts on “Corona Diaries 3-23-2020

  1. I am with you Robyn, I totally understand….lately I have good days and not so good….I try and refocus when I feel the overload of all the information going on…..and definitely take out some good news in the Bible and trust in him….he knows how we feel. I really felt weird watching the mass this passed Sunday and doing the spiritual communion…..it just really different and I know we God willing will get past this but what will our world look like hopefully simpler and more focused on the important things in life….sending you a virtual hug….:-)…Debbie

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    1. Hi Debbie, Yeah I hear you.. I just had a good cry with Jesus.. It helped. I unloaded on Him… So tonight I am just trying to get my brains to settle in a little bit. I think I am just on information overload and it’s spiking my anxiety like I haven’t had in years. I keep telling myself as far as my anxiety, I fought too hard to overcome it to let it reappear so, I am holding onto the Lord. I hope you and your whole family are well and safe. God bless you Debbie XO

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