Like clockwork, every…..single…….month…….
It’s that time of the month again, sorry gentlemen but yaknow, it’s real life.. I’m forty-eight I thought by now I’d be close to finishing with the PMS.. You ladies understand what I’m talking about don’t you?.. I mean, c’mon!!
I don’t know about the rest of ya’ll ladies but for me, once a month I get weepy now, and real philosophical.. I climb into my my own thoughts and boy, do I think! The last few months my deep thinking has been about social media and my use of it..or should I say my, wasting time on it..I’ve grappled with this for a long time now and I can’t believe I have finally been able to admit to myself WHY I’ve grappled with it for so long..
I have it.. Yep, I definitely have it. I have denied I’ve had it for almost two years or more. I have been in denial because oh, “I’m not like them”. “I’m stronger than those kind of people.” You know the ones I mean. Attached at the ear to the phone. Always scrolling through Facebook, Twitter, Instagram etc.. Yeah, those kind of people.
Guess what? I AM like those people. I AM one of those people. I have… FOMO!! I still can’t wrap my head around it. In case you don’t know what “FOMO” is it means, Fear Of Missing Out.. But tell me, WHAT AM I MISSING OUT ON? After sitting here today thinking about this on and off all day and I do mean…..all day… Yes it’s that time of the month, I realized also, I’m not missing out on anything.
Before I joined social media which by the way I fought against for about four years, I didn’t think I was missing out on anything. I filled my time actually doing things. Even if it was sitting down reading a book, watching an old black and white movie, crocheting something or just laying down listening to all the bugs at night that make those cool and relaxing sounds that God gave them to make.
I WANT TO GO BACK THERE.. But, the only way I can do that is by taking control of what I consume and how much of it I consume. I believe I am finally at a place where I am ready to take control of the social media monster. I don’t believe I will leave it totally but the endless hours of scrolling, scrolling, scrolling until my eyes are cross eyed are over for me. I will be blogging more, YouTubing less, I will be putting much more into my blog and maybe Instagram and much, much less time scrolling brain dead through Facebook and Twitter..
I guess being forty-eight and still dealing with PMS can be good for something…..